hmmm…apparently…i was suppose to post one of my blog entries last week..i saved it as a draft..
but now would be the wrong time to actually post that entry…
right now…i’m typing this blog entry at the weirdest place anyone would ever blog..
i’m at a wake…
weird..I KNOW..

so…this is the case..
on father’s day..last Sunday…we were suppose to ‘celebrate’ father’s day with my mother..afterall..we’ve been doing this all the time…
i was looking forward to steamboat..with the delicious mushrooms and chicken…
during noon…there was sort of a argument between my mom, bro and I..
but anyway…that aside…
after the huge argument..we received a phone call..
it was from our father…wow.. Happy Father’s Day..

apparently not so…to our dismay..our grandma(father’s side) was in the hospital..in a critical situation…
we rushed out to visit her…she was in the ICU..
when we went in..she was lying on the bed…still conscious..very alert indeed..
it was a weird situation as i haven’t seen her in like..about 5 years….
there were many machines working to keep her heart beating..
when she saw us…she wanted to say something..but she couldn’t..as there was a tube connected to her lungs to help her breath (something like that)
we could tell that she wanted to say something..but we simply couldn’t figure it out…
i held her hand…it was cold..
i spoke a few words to her…and told her that i was going to the US soon..
she gave a slight nod…
after that…we stayed in the hospital till late…
at around 2 to 3am..i suppose..
our dad instructed as to go home and take a rest…as she might be alright..

we headed home…as i lay down in bed…getting ready to sleep…my mom’s phone rang..
we all had an adrenaline rush…
we rushed to the hospital..as the nurses said her blood pressure was low..and this might be very critical..
when we arrived…my dad was already there…talking to her..trying to encourage her to keep going on..
after about a hour..her blood pressure rose gradually…her heart beat was faster…
she was putting on this battle…she was holding on very strongly…
i did admire her strength to keep going on..
after that..we stayed till about 6.30am…
we headed home as her condition was much stable..

at around 10am…my mom’s phone rang again…
i sprang out of bed and woke my bro up…
we rushed to the hospital…
and when we were there..her eyes were already closed..
her heart beat was really weak…her blood pressure was low…
the only thing keep her going were the machines
when my younger bro arrived…(yes younger bro…it’s rather compicated…but i’ll try to explain another time..if i can figure it out about it myself..haha)…
he held her hand…her heart rate gradually decreased…the nurses rushed in..with the doctors..
trying their best to revive her…there was a little gap between the curtains..
it was really scary as i witness the doctor performing CPR…
however…she passed away at 11.20am..

honestly…i heard 11.20am…but when i went in there to see her…i thought she was still alive..
my head was in a mess too…there were tears..and cries…
apparently..my younger bro was the most badly affected one..
as he was the one my grandma doted on the most…
my heart sank when i saw him cried…he was really badly affected…
after that…we went home to take a break…and at 7pm we went to the wake…
right now..i’m here again…
i hope my grandma will rest in peace….
that was my sunday…
unexpected..unpredicted…

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